Build a Bridge and Jump Off It

Lonely and restless on the coldest of nights 
With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down. 
I'm only fooling everyone else 
So that everyone else choose their back on me. 

So let go of these feelings that I'm keeping inside 
Or hold on, cause I'm feeling like I'm barely alive. 
Lay back, as this pain takes over me. 
Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control 
Nineteen years, and I've got nothing to show 
Were only getting older now. 

This pain seems forgotten 
But inside I'm rotting 
Thinking of all this time 
Left to waste then die 
The only thing I know for sure 
Is I don't care anymore 

And when I'm gone 
I hope you have the strength to move on 
Angry, but I'm told to not complain 
Recluse, but I'm better off this way 
This is not what I want, but I'll just bite my tongue 
I'm hungry, but I'm too tired to eat 
Tired, but I'm too hungry to sleep 
Were only getting older now 

And it hurts. 
Save me cause I'm drowning, 
Please give me more time 
Cause I can't keep on counting 
It feels like I'm blinded now 
As they shut me out 
But I'm trying to see 
Please make this stop 

My pain seems forgotten 
But inside I'm rotting 
Thinking of all this time. 
I wait to die 
But I'm not going to know what I'm doing hear 
So why can't you give me a sign 
And as I drown now 
Swimming in an ocean of fear 
My last regret is 
Never knowing why I'm here.