One More Time Forever

riding quietly we started fires and threw bricks 
ignition
the rubbing together of two sticks
dead dog 
new tricks
left alone
keep this right
looking for the cheapest flight
and yet another sleepless night
bad dreams
the deepest fright
and ever through hallways
pitch black
endless
saying never to always
once the doors open
the audience will file in
and then you piano and I try to violin
I fall to the floor in dementia and protest
my job is to translate into a language that's grotesque
drowning in the open waters of frustration and blank rage
it troubles the heart and I'm left staring at the blank page
the distorted floor beneath me and blurry skies
hands that are on fire can't hide worried eyes
the cold sets in in the autumn of a hell
and I consentrate on the answers at the bottom of a well

in exile

one more time
forever for the mourner
dressed in all black and painted into a corner
hard rock weeks compared to the soft minutes
the few and far between 
and words that are off limits
the horses all ran away 
they ran away
the birds dispelled eyes that may never make contact  
words withheld
all the cats are black and the sidewalks cracked
been down so long I don't know how to act
appearing real
strangling the steering wheel and choking throttles
thinking the worst and drinking outta broken bottles
the deepest breath held it in 
the skeleton that grows twisted
are we reading from the right script
tight lipped
close fisted
baring a task
all the questions we're caring to ask 
while keeping our guards up and wearing a mask
making art 
the war being waged and taking part
seeing the stars fall and the sounds of a breaking heart like